~ still MINE ~

areugiddy @ 2007-12-10T18:13:00

2007-12-10T10:16:59Z

after collating my survey results... which is *yawn boring
i spent about 30mins to an hour!! shifting to wordpress. and its really EASY.. and can import everything..
SO
i have SHIFTED [again]
hopefully for the last final time, but i think i'm really satisfied with wordpress!!

tata.
www.areugiddy.wordpress.com

areugiddy @ 2007-12-10T13:28:00

2007-12-10T05:31:16Z

second guessing my decision past isnt going to get me anywhere.
but lets not live a life of regret.
rather of hope. in many things.

argh business IA, can you please solve yourself?

i'm really getting fed up with all this livejournal advertisements.
its templates are BORING,
and non user-friendly.
perhaps i shall change to blogger or wordpress sometime...... -_-

areugiddy @ 2007-12-08T19:44:00

2007-12-08T11:56:04Z

i am tired.
after camp.
i've gotten somewhere at least,
yet nowhere sadly.

on the other hand, i logged into friendster for the first time this half of the year, to accept new friends since june...
and found this photo that was our 3.14 class.

nostalgia clogs me brain.

areugiddy @ 2007-12-04T11:06:00

2007-12-04T03:12:53Z

bay camp is up in a couple of hours.
i feel a quarter of the excitement i had before. -_-
~~
*i have this ominous feel. dread. gloom. that hangs.
like a noose. a terrible fate.
whats going to happen in the coming months, years?
perhaps, i'll find some answers.
perhaps i wont.
but i just know that there'll be more questions.
because life, as we grow older, is the opposite of the 2nd law of thermodynamics.
we get so damned complicated.
yet simpler
at the same
time.
~~
i cant wait.
and i'm not being sarcastic.
at all

areugiddy @ 2007-12-03T15:20:00

2007-12-03T07:24:31Z

i cant concentrate at all. i'm frustrated. i hate EE. i hate IA. i hate how things are happening. i hate the little time i have because i cant use it properly, because i'm busy hating everything else. whats more i know i shouldnt be hating anything. what the?

areugiddy @ 2007-12-01T23:49:00

2007-12-01T16:28:21Z

nice song extract:
"      i think you look the best
When your hair is a mess
I can't believe you exist
I could get used to this

Because I know you're too good to be true
I must have done something good to meet you     " [slightly abridged]

yesterday, before watching the not-that-good movie hitman, me waiting at cineleisure 5th floor alone because i was lol waht half and hour early? watching random people walk around cine. and is surprisingly amusing, not as in i'm laughing at people amusing, the kill boredom kind of amusing. i shant mention why.
btw hitman is a mediocre to lousy movie, clearly it is not NC16, the censorship board is laxing its hold man. gideon disapproves!

took SAT today, if you dont know what that is, like dear sherman, who thought it was the university of new south wales competition, its something like the american university entrance examinations. but clearly i'm not adequate to even start thinking about university but just decided that ooo it'll be fun... gave it my best shot though which is most important. the 3 and three quarter exam is really long and i was fraught with hunger pangs. luckily my trusty chocolate bars saved my stomach from digesting itself. yummy... and its so hard to catch sleep during the test cause its done section by section, so like 25 mins, then stop then 25 mins, etc... so you cant just finish the stupid thing and sleep. instead i managed the abit of the last 5 minutes of each section after giving it a good checking.. but the english stuff was quite tough. cheemology man, like i see some words i go: nice joke there's no such word please, it sounds retarded even. but i guess i admit i've never ever seen those words in my life, nor will i ever i feel [hope]. a good experience!! everyone should take SATs, fun and enjoyable, the passages sometimes have quite nice stuff to read, though i cant remember any of them by this time. not supposed to discuss anyways.

lunch with nirasha alan, joined by raj later, wanted to watch 'the kingdom' but realized that vivocity GV is really strict, we could'nt buy their NC16 movie without david there to show his IC, even though we said he's 18. lol oh well. i just realized that we shouldnt have walked off after being refused. because we wanted to buy tickets before david raj was there, but since he wasnt there to show his IC, we couldnt buy tickets, we should've pleaded that guy to sell us the tickets and we wait right next to the counter, and when raj comes he can show his IC and we're all happily watching the show.

but instead, raj came, i went off to church. BAY worship is my fav. fulfilling time. and i didnt even need        . i'm improving!!! hahahaa

areugiddy @ 2007-11-30T21:20:00

2007-11-30T13:22:27Z

asong

more pictures

2007-11-30T04:47:49Z

me & co. & vienna

me & hazel & bumpy car

first resort

~~ulu place~~ nice snowy house.

snow + flash

pictures

2007-11-29T17:25:20Z

dont you love it when they take you with your eyes closed.

me & my closed eyes & everyone else [not in picture: gong]

me & hazel jie

me & pier + snow

me & dad & our mini van

~~me &~~ icicle

most valuable buy: my hearty apple. [i just ate it today] cute eh?

more photos later, LJ sucks at photo uploading..

areugiddy @ 2007-11-29T13:37:00

2007-11-29T05:55:56Z

everyone needs a vacation. arrival: austria
i guess going somewhere overseas for a holiday with your parents isnt that fun when you're 17.
i mean, its just not there you know? but anyway,

autria was interesting, i cant imagine what it would've been like if i had been born there. some remote part of europe. i'm not really a winter person i realized, its all too black and white. autumn is my fav, prefer the colourful foliage and cool mild temperatures rather than extreme cold and a world covered in snow. too dull, too deserted devoid of livelihood? autumn's vibrancy and uniqueness in the blend of colours. *muacks*

the first few things one would notice upon coming to the remote central part of europe, is the drastic change in climate. but besides the cold, low humidity levels also plague the lips and skin of tropical visitors. noses get all runny and much tissue asking for takes place. but temperature aside, its hard to miss the stark contrast in the lifestyle of the people living there. compared to singaporeans, those people are saintly, an honest, clean, generous and helpful bunch. they lead extremely simple lives, they go to the city like once a month i think? goes to show that education and high standards of living complicates things abit. i cant really accept this lifestyle, theres no excitement, thrill of competition, no drive, no fast paced life of singapore. i'm addicted to it. people live like tortoises here, not literally slow, they walk really fast btw, and its NOT because i have shorter legs.

i just cant believe people can be such nice things? singapore really has horrid people compared to those people. but i shant over generalize.
its true to some extend though, no such thing as kia su there. its amazing how some of their public toilets look abit like hotel toilets, even the ones that dont need payment upon entry. however, they are pretty intrigued by asians, getting many stares as we walk around, something we dont do to caucasians in singapore, but its different there, they've probably never seen asians before, i dunno.

spent a good deal of time thinking. not about my EE, or business IA, or TOK essay or presentation.
all i can say, is that i never collected so many of my thoughts on God before. i would've thought alot more if not for my brother's trusty psp which was unfortunately my main source of entertainment.

sorry i didnt really buy alot of stuff back =P. but aiya i suppose noone would expect things from me.

areugiddy @ 2007-11-16T02:37:00

2007-11-15T18:50:27Z

a very slight sense of duty urges me to notify ppl that i wont be in singapore for the next 13 days, so have fun without me.

i really lack the ooomph to blog anything of substance, not as if i DO blog things of substance... but well unfortunately i'm not the witty blogger who sets out to impress, outwit and tickle readers. No.. well alot of my posts are simply my thoughts directly typed out. Hence some posts take the form of one liners, others in some form of poetic structure [though it is hardly intended to be so], and some just a whole lump of un-paragraphed babble [much like this one only alot longer]. sometimes i go back to my old blogs, old posts since 2005. and i laugh at myself, at the language, the tone of my posts, allmost seem humourously immature-ish. however that does not imply that now i feel mega mature and all... its just, you'know that feeling when you look back at the things you did years ago, even maybe just last month or yesterday, and you tell yourself: "man, i said some immature stuff" or "crap, i didnt see that coming". And perhaps you wonder also, if others saw this flaw in you, and what they would've thought about you.

why am i even saying this in second person point of view.. its me,
and there are so many things that i realized i failed to see. and no, i'm not revealing them, its just a matter in my heart to tell. a tale to remember, and to just replay again and again, kicking oneself in agonizing regret, regret, regret.

"cast all your anxiety unto him"
there you go God.

areugiddy @ 2007-11-14T21:36:00

2007-11-14T13:39:42Z

i spend my life observing. when will i go proactive i wonder.

areugiddy @ 2007-11-11T00:19:00

2007-11-10T16:21:34Z

friendlocked post

areugiddy @ 2007-11-09T00:19:00

2007-11-08T16:31:37Z

if committing suicide wasnt a sin, i'd be in the new tmr morning: 17yearold dies jumping out of his 9th storey apartment.
but that just shows the circumstancial mood swings that people can really get into...

i spent my morning sleeping,
and peeling off the root-ends of tao-gay, cuz my mother wanted to cook prawn noodles [which were actually really nice] so me being the maid around the house... since my brother does nothing but plays com, dad plays his piano or sleeps or watches tv, mum cooks and cleans and washes the clothes, i do the every other odd job [which includes picking up the stupid house phone when it rings].
my mum complains i treat house like a hotel, maybe because i'm the room service guy...

well enough complaining.. i've really got to pray about my life at home...

i'm just content with today thanks to other stuff... even the smallest things can surprisingly make one happy and forget all the bullshit of a day stuck at home without reason.

areugiddy @ 2007-11-06T22:58:00

2007-11-06T15:00:29Z

just when i thought the battle was being won,
it comes along and shoves me down the toilet bowl...

areugiddy @ 2007-11-05T19:39:00

2007-11-05T11:44:21Z

i might be lonely, dejected, rejected, unwanted, sad, down, run down, oppressed, repressed, depressed, stressed, strained, happy, joyous, high, low, nervous, terrified, thoughtful, tired, frustrated, angry, annoyed, or even dead, and i might not even show it.
no problem?
no

areugiddy @ 2007-11-05T16:54:00

2007-11-05T08:57:04Z

my nitinol wire overheated and SNAPPED TWICE TODAY,
i'm left with 1 metre, of that precious wire... zzzoman oh man oh man.

areugiddy @ 2007-11-03T23:14:00

2007-11-03T15:16:13Z

what do you really want??
i know what i need.

areugiddy @ 2007-11-02T21:33:00

2007-11-02T13:46:21Z

no more chinese for the REST OF MY LIFE zomg zombies... thats is, if i get 7 points, which is highly probable.
thank God for the inspiration. china inspiration.

after which went to KAP for lunch, then to lido to watch a preeeeettttyy good movie.
i was just telling nirasha that people listen to me if i say its a good movie or not... =D, well since i hardly say that a movie is good, most of the time i'd say its a waste of money, its too retardedly humoured or predictable.
but today we watched STARDUST, and it was really good. its abit on the fairytale side, but plot is pretty original [to me at least], although some parts were predictable [i guess its unavoidable since bad guys can never win in the end, not in PG movies at least], the characters were interesting and really made people feel for them.
well thats what makes a good movie.
oh, and this one is really funny too.

i gives it 9 out of 10 giddy thumbs up.
mm i'd have to borrow some thumbs for this rating.

after the movie lalala, jumbled around orchard as usual and ended up eating jap tori from taka basement, but brought it to food republic at wisma to eat, then left wisma at close to 8 and came HOME.

hahaha
my diary entry.

so coincidental that a diary topic came up for the IB chinese compo paper!! waa i spam emo man. my fav.

areugiddy @ 2007-11-01T21:34:00

2007-11-01T13:37:01Z

a climatic peak,
yet i feel indifferent,
it may be the chinese,
it might not.
then again, i don't really
let things
be simply
coincidental.

nah.

areugiddy @ 2007-10-31T22:06:00

2007-10-31T14:19:57Z

guess how i spent halloween?
went back to school at 9 to do EE until 1.30
then did chinese..... till about 7
went for dinner at serene centre
and came home.

my EE experiment.

oh joy, my life is revolving around science, chinese and... ? it sarks totally.

areugiddy @ 2007-10-30T21:22:00

2007-10-30T13:32:38Z

i was wondering whether those times when you're thinking about something,
and suddenly this solution comes to mind,
if i was praying about this problem,
the only way to know if it's God's solution is if it is in accordance with the word.

but
of course theres abit of a problem, because the bible isnt your life answer scheme.
not everything is inside, somethings a subject to inference and interpretation?
so how can we be sure?
conscience & the H.S.?
and theres another hurdle,
how can i be sure its from God or from the devil? - if its in accordance with the word..

oh no.. circular.
how now brown cow?
faith. how.
faith is forever outsmarting logic. no fair.

areugiddy @ 2007-10-28T21:45:00

2007-10-28T13:53:03Z

today, will be my last day of freedom.
shocking to hear that... but yes, i'm resigned to my awesome fate,
so many constraints, i hate them but there's nothing i can do about them.
i wish so many things could be different, but God allowed things like this so .. *shrugs*,
i'm just wondering,
perhaps in a parallel universe, i would have taken the road less traveled by.

tmr,
morning chinese classes,
business DL program,
afternoon EE lab work,

dont i lurrvbs my life. <3

i did something funny, i was browsing around blogthings for 5 minutes, then saw this
'whats your biblical name'

i shall show this is just a lousy spoof, they asked to type in your current name and your gender,

i put 'Gideon', male,

Your Biblical Name Is...

Zakai Hosea

You will not live to see the end of times.

HUH?

areugiddy @ 2007-10-27T23:06:00

2007-10-27T15:12:52Z

just when i thought the world wasnt all about girls, grades and gold..
you comes along and phooff...

nothing happens actually.
the world isnt about girls, grades and gold.
funny how important things start with the letter G.
the most important being......

God.
who thought i was gonna say 'gideon' raise your hand.

in the past i never really gave two hoots about what people thought about me, like when you're young, its so easy to say sorry... but being older you're like scared to lose face that kinda thing...
you'know that sort of stuff...
let me tell all of you a secret
i may be an idiot,
but at least i'm not a superficial idiot.
oh yea..

areugiddy @ 2007-10-27T00:26:00

2007-10-26T16:29:23Z

last day of school. is far from the last day of work,
come lets share the misery:
extended essay 4k words. - lab work + write ups
business IA research + write up
TOK essay
TOK presentation
chinese IB paper.

oops? holiday?